with a touch of melancholy

"lost, wanting to find, love that has gone out of reach"

~Outlet 1 - fuseboxx                                                         

would i watch the curtains fall? i know this isn't over.. not yet it is. i still cling on to the thought that there would come a time that we will both watch the sun rise from the horizon and watch as it settles and rest in dawn. till i  see your silhouette from a distance as you come near me and we prepare to embark our journey for another day. 

i feel melancholic.

i would lie if i appear that i am alright. pretending has it's perk at times. other people doesn't seem to notice how much my heart aches as day pass by quick. it pass by so fast without you. i would trade half of what i have to get back on the days and moments that we spend time together. though fate and distance can be so cruel that it contradicts on what we want and wished for. 

all will be fine soon.

i keep remembering those words as it lingers in the back of my worry filled mind. i'm such a worry-wart. it sucks to be this way. i keep telling myself to be patient and wait. wait until everything is alright and ready. until there are no more hindrances in the way. such an optimistic way of seeing things. i can do that. but would you forgive for times that i fail to do this and entertain pessimistic thoughts of having the thought of losing you. i can't seem to bear that thought. 

for i have lost so many things in my life recently. i don't plan on including you in that part. not now. not ever..

absence makes the heart grow fonder

so i hope and pray every waking day and before i rest my weary eyes that you be safe and well. love hasn't gone out of reach. as far as i can see. thoughts of you grow fonder still, in spite of your absence.

until later my love..