Another day another chance…
My life is worthless without you here beside me…
The number of people that were in the mall last Sunday astounded me. Hoping we could have just a short glimpse of a band that she and I favors to. I was with her and nothing seems to go wrong as the day passed by and everything seems all right. We ate out after strolling for a while in the mall. Some spicy squid balls and chicken balls relinquish our hunger and made our way back to her house to where we will surf the net and try to finish up, but not after we ate again at a congee shop. Suddenly we came to stop at a corner wherein a common acquaintance showed up and then we got ourselves into conversation that leads us to our friend’s bf house. We waited and chatted for some time then came our friends’ bf. Then we parted ways and went on our way to a computer shop wherein we could start working for her research stuffs and other things. I was happy to have the time for us to be together again… The feeling of being with seems engulfing with nothing but pure happiness and all the good things combine. Instead of doing research for her studies we ended up making a blog for her…I made sure that things were fine and I hoped she was satisfied with her blog but I promised that I will try and make it more like the way she wanted it to be. So next Saturday I will be back there again to update her blog and do some adjustments to make it more lively and beautiful…just like her. J
After we surf the net, we got ourselves back to her house and we ate dinner. She said she cooked the meal that we would partake that day, it was chicken-pork curry and it was superb. Then all of the sudden while in the middle of eating our dinner, rain just poured outside and it was beginning to sound louder and louder making it seems like a storm raging hard on the outmost area outside. I thought for a while and hoped that the raining should put to ease but the heavens forbid it and I was stuck there until the raining has ceased. Her father came home all wet and delivered the news that the streets were flooded and cars cant even passed up for a yard or two.
Her mom said that I can stay there at her sister’s room for the night and can leave in the morning the next day. I stayed there and she made sure that I’m all right with things and she bid me goodnight and lent me books for me to read. I have trouble sleeping so I decided to answer her MS work and read some books about poetry and other short stories. I was delighted to found a picture of her in one of the books there and so I took it out and stared at it for a while. I got up and play the short recording of her voice as I drew her picture in one of the pages of a pad paper that she left for me to use as scratch…I finished my work and beheld the art to my eyes. I was kinda disappointed for I thought I can make a better one if hadn’t stop practicing drawing way back. I also played the guitar to put some sense into the silent night were all you can hear were the sounds of the rain outside and the noise of the electric fan. I lie back and thought to myself about the things that I missed. And reminisced about the years gone by and silently repent for some things that I did.
(monday 6-27)
It was about passed 6 am when she entered the room and saw me answering the final questions on her MS and asked if I did sleep and I quickly answered -no.
I fixed myself up and greeted her good morning. She just smiled…like she always does.
I chat with her for a while then ask if I can go for I have to fix myself to school that day. I bid her mom goodbye and thanked her for letting me stay there for the night.
I declined the breakfast that her mom offered me and went on my way back to home.
My day started all right and ended up sleeping in one of my classes that I think I shouldn’t go fooling around with things that are not quite worth it and by the way we got an “A” for our play.(yabang!)
Lesson: if you can’t sleep then its time for you to wake up.
Sunday Insomnia
Walkathon
“ I can’t feel my legs!!!!!!!!! I’m BBLIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNDED!!!!!!!!! ”
isang sabado, pumunta ko sa bahay ni bes kasama c tagapalo,.
Dumayo kmi ng bulacan kasi..ano kasi…uhmm..para makiinom ng isang baso ng tubig hehehe
Tapos nun, inaya nya kmi na pumunta sa Adelram, at kumain kmi ng isaw at kung anu-ano pang lamang loob…at nag sopdrenks kmi in batol sinalin lng sa plastik.. yun nag cost cutting kmi kasi may lakad pa ko kinabukasan at babalik uli ako sa bahy ni bes kasi mag sisimba sana kmi at ppntang eSaM marilao para manood ng MYMP.
Nga pla naglakad lng kmi ppuntang adelram tas ganun din pabalik sa knila…yun kwento kwento tas napansin ko na lng na ala sais na pla…umaga pa lng wala na ko sa bahay kasi may praktis kmi sa play nmin sa speech class para sa teacher nming baklita hehehe no offense poc poc sya eh.(P-possessive O-Obsessive C- compulsive times 2) ayun…
All went well namn I hope, sana di ako mag stutter kasi may stage fright ako eh…kakatamad kasi pag humaharap ka sa madla at pinagtitinginan ka simula ulo hanggang paa na para ka lng tae na mabaho na kailangan nilang itaboy palayo o para kang may kulangot o kung ano sa mukha mo at dun cla nakafocus lintek yan.
Kaya nagapaalam na kmi ni tagapalo, kasi maglilibot libot pa kmi sa eSaM, at nagdevice pa ko ng plano na maglalakd lng kmi kasi malapit lapit lng namn un sa bahay ni bes.
Pagdating sa esam wala lng naglibot libot lng ulit kmi at kung saan saan kmi nagtungo at naghanap ng wala…mabuti na rin yun kaysa sa walng hinahanap..di ba?
Tapos mga 7pm nag aya ng gumayak pauwi….paglabas naming sa mall eh nagpag usapan na lakarin na lng naming hanggang sa may pandayan at dun na lng kmi sumakay ng jeep…di namn kmi nag kukuripot may pera namn kmi wala lng napagtripan lng na maglakd pake mo.
At inabot kmi ng halos 20 minutos at narating nmin ang aming destinasyon … ang pandayan.
Ngunit, subalit, datapwat …biglang may pumasok sa kokote na lakarin na lng hanggang malinta…WOW! Ayus yun ah…
Ang matagl tagal ko ng pangarap na lakarin ang balintawak hangagng malinta exit at di matupad tupad eh maisasakatuparan sa pamamagitan nito so pumayag ako at kmi’y nagsimulang mag lakad…
Ayus nga eh madami kming nakitang kakaiba tulad na lng ng traffic, away ng MMDA at isang driver ng bus, mga hosto na binubulabaog ng mga tambay sa may squatter’s area, mga matang hayup tumngin…hayup talaga mukha silang animal at parang ngayon lng nakakita ng nakaputi at nakaitim na magkasamang naglalakad sa kahabaan ng McArthur hi-way, nag jacutiime pa nga ko na para kming SUGO ~ung mani.
…kala ko nag mapapatrobol pa kmi dmi kasing adik dun eh… hehehehe
Nalampasan naming ang isang sambahan ng mga Inglesia ni Cristo at napag usapan na halos lahat ng sambahan nila eh maganda kaysa sa mga simbahan ng mga katoliko (kinu-corrupt kasi pati pera ng simbahan tsk tsk) ayun pati mga gawain ng mga relihiyon napag usapan na..ung di pag kain ng karne ng baboy at kung anu-ano pa…. Nadaanan din min ung dating skul na pinaggradweytan ng ate ko …ayus airconditioned rooms na…at nagooffer na ngayon ng nursing..iba talaga epekto ng utak kolonyalismo sa mga pinoy talaga namn…
Naisip ko rin ung sinabi ng baklitang prof ko…
“so after you graduate you will all go to the united states or to any country that you want…(tumango ung iba…ung ilan natutulog at ung isa kumakain *ehem*)
hmmp you are like human exports…
do you have tags that are labeled EQ ( biglang may humihirit -diaper? Emotional quotient?) loka export quality!” ani ni baklita…
at yun na nga traffic pa dun kaya biglang nagcomment na buti na lng ngalakd tayo kundi umuusok na pwet natin jan sa haba ng traffic,
nagulat kmi kas pagkalipas ng ilang minuto eh may nkita ulit kmi na simbahn ng iglesia ulet!?!?!
Niloko ko pa si tagapalo..
“oi! Pare parang dinaanan na natin toh kanina ah…DEJAVOU hehehehe”
“pare di nga???
Muntik ko ng maconvice kaya lng naawa ako bka mag collapse pa hehehehe mahaba haba pa yung lalakbayin naming…
Tas may nikta kming lightshow parang may gig sabi ni tagapalo
Tol paano kaya kung may gig tayo tapos biglng nasira ung auto ko kaso malayo ung lugar edi lalakrin lng natyin papunta dun ehehehe tapos double pedal pa ung gagamitin ko nku durog durog tuhod ko nun hehehehe
At nilampasan naming ang ikalawang sambahan ng mga taga hulyo iglesias…
Huminto lng kmi nung bumili kmi ng isang ubd ng lameg na POP MEGA mega sa uhaw mega sa konti soooooper tamis at dahil wala pa kming kinaing hapunan eh sadyang nagdulot ito ng kakaibang sensasyon sa aking sikmura na parang nagmumura na ito sa galit. Pero ininom ko na ren…sayang eh…
Inabot kmi ng dalawang oras mahigit sa kakalakad at nakarating din kmi sa may SOUTH supermarket sa may malinta.. at long last nakaabot din…si tagaopalo ay tuwang tuwa at nagsisisgaw ng makarating kmi dun (with matching taas pa ng kamay! Wooohooo! Yes!yes! ) namanhid ung tuhod ko at napilitan akong mag bayad sa jeep ng sakto kasi dati student fare lng binabayad naming…(abusuhin ang discount habang nanjan pa!)
At pag tapos nun parang gusto ko uling ulitin ung nagyari ..
Yaan mo may nextym pa.
Moral lesson: kung ayaw mong magka paltus…mag Darlington socks ka…mura lng
naynti-nayn sints…
`manny pacquiao (dolly tuna…dolly tuna)
“ lahat ng mga bagay sa mundo ay hindi na kukuha ng pabunjeeng bunjeeng lang…
Kailangan mo rin itong pag hirapan..kaya simulan mo ng mag lakad pare koy…”
isang sabado, pumunta ko sa bahay ni bes kasama c tagapalo,.
Dumayo kmi ng bulacan kasi..ano kasi…uhmm..para makiinom ng isang baso ng tubig hehehe
Tapos nun, inaya nya kmi na pumunta sa Adelram, at kumain kmi ng isaw at kung anu-ano pang lamang loob…at nag sopdrenks kmi in batol sinalin lng sa plastik.. yun nag cost cutting kmi kasi may lakad pa ko kinabukasan at babalik uli ako sa bahy ni bes kasi mag sisimba sana kmi at ppntang eSaM marilao para manood ng MYMP.
Nga pla naglakad lng kmi ppuntang adelram tas ganun din pabalik sa knila…yun kwento kwento tas napansin ko na lng na ala sais na pla…umaga pa lng wala na ko sa bahay kasi may praktis kmi sa play nmin sa speech class para sa teacher nming baklita hehehe no offense poc poc sya eh.(P-possessive O-Obsessive C- compulsive times 2) ayun…
All went well namn I hope, sana di ako mag stutter kasi may stage fright ako eh…kakatamad kasi pag humaharap ka sa madla at pinagtitinginan ka simula ulo hanggang paa na para ka lng tae na mabaho na kailangan nilang itaboy palayo o para kang may kulangot o kung ano sa mukha mo at dun cla nakafocus lintek yan.
Kaya nagapaalam na kmi ni tagapalo, kasi maglilibot libot pa kmi sa eSaM, at nagdevice pa ko ng plano na maglalakd lng kmi kasi malapit lapit lng namn un sa bahay ni bes.
Pagdating sa esam wala lng naglibot libot lng ulit kmi at kung saan saan kmi nagtungo at naghanap ng wala…mabuti na rin yun kaysa sa walng hinahanap..di ba?
Tapos mga 7pm nag aya ng gumayak pauwi….paglabas naming sa mall eh nagpag usapan na lakarin na lng naming hanggang sa may pandayan at dun na lng kmi sumakay ng jeep…di namn kmi nag kukuripot may pera namn kmi wala lng napagtripan lng na maglakd pake mo.
At inabot kmi ng halos 20 minutos at narating nmin ang aming destinasyon … ang pandayan.
Ngunit, subalit, datapwat …biglang may pumasok sa kokote na lakarin na lng hanggang malinta…WOW! Ayus yun ah…
Ang matagl tagal ko ng pangarap na lakarin ang balintawak hangagng malinta exit at di matupad tupad eh maisasakatuparan sa pamamagitan nito so pumayag ako at kmi’y nagsimulang mag lakad…
Ayus nga eh madami kming nakitang kakaiba tulad na lng ng traffic, away ng MMDA at isang driver ng bus, mga hosto na binubulabaog ng mga tambay sa may squatter’s area, mga matang hayup tumngin…hayup talaga mukha silang animal at parang ngayon lng nakakita ng nakaputi at nakaitim na magkasamang naglalakad sa kahabaan ng McArthur hi-way, nag jacutiime pa nga ko na para kming SUGO ~ung mani.
…kala ko nag mapapatrobol pa kmi dmi kasing adik dun eh… hehehehe
Nalampasan naming ang isang sambahan ng mga Inglesia ni Cristo at napag usapan na halos lahat ng sambahan nila eh maganda kaysa sa mga simbahan ng mga katoliko (kinu-corrupt kasi pati pera ng simbahan tsk tsk) ayun pati mga gawain ng mga relihiyon napag usapan na..ung di pag kain ng karne ng baboy at kung anu-ano pa…. Nadaanan din min ung dating skul na pinaggradweytan ng ate ko …ayus airconditioned rooms na…at nagooffer na ngayon ng nursing..iba talaga epekto ng utak kolonyalismo sa mga pinoy talaga namn…
Naisip ko rin ung sinabi ng baklitang prof ko…
“so after you graduate you will all go to the united states or to any country that you want…(tumango ung iba…ung ilan natutulog at ung isa kumakain *ehem*)
hmmp you are like human exports…
do you have tags that are labeled EQ ( biglang may humihirit -diaper? Emotional quotient?) loka export quality!” ani ni baklita…
at yun na nga traffic pa dun kaya biglang nagcomment na buti na lng ngalakd tayo kundi umuusok na pwet natin jan sa haba ng traffic,
nagulat kmi kas pagkalipas ng ilang minuto eh may nkita ulit kmi na simbahn ng iglesia ulet!?!?!
Niloko ko pa si tagapalo..
“oi! Pare parang dinaanan na natin toh kanina ah…DEJAVOU hehehehe”
“pare di nga???
Muntik ko ng maconvice kaya lng naawa ako bka mag collapse pa hehehehe mahaba haba pa yung lalakbayin naming…
Tas may nikta kming lightshow parang may gig sabi ni tagapalo
Tol paano kaya kung may gig tayo tapos biglng nasira ung auto ko kaso malayo ung lugar edi lalakrin lng natyin papunta dun ehehehe tapos double pedal pa ung gagamitin ko nku durog durog tuhod ko nun hehehehe
At nilampasan naming ang ikalawang sambahan ng mga taga hulyo iglesias…
Huminto lng kmi nung bumili kmi ng isang ubd ng lameg na POP MEGA mega sa uhaw mega sa konti soooooper tamis at dahil wala pa kming kinaing hapunan eh sadyang nagdulot ito ng kakaibang sensasyon sa aking sikmura na parang nagmumura na ito sa galit. Pero ininom ko na ren…sayang eh…
Inabot kmi ng dalawang oras mahigit sa kakalakad at nakarating din kmi sa may SOUTH supermarket sa may malinta.. at long last nakaabot din…si tagaopalo ay tuwang tuwa at nagsisisgaw ng makarating kmi dun (with matching taas pa ng kamay! Wooohooo! Yes!yes! ) namanhid ung tuhod ko at napilitan akong mag bayad sa jeep ng sakto kasi dati student fare lng binabayad naming…(abusuhin ang discount habang nanjan pa!)
At pag tapos nun parang gusto ko uling ulitin ung nagyari ..
Yaan mo may nextym pa.
Moral lesson: kung ayaw mong magka paltus…mag Darlington socks ka…mura lng
naynti-nayn sints…
`manny pacquiao (dolly tuna…dolly tuna)
“ lahat ng mga bagay sa mundo ay hindi na kukuha ng pabunjeeng bunjeeng lang…
Kailangan mo rin itong pag hirapan..kaya simulan mo ng mag lakad pare koy…”
R u ur name?
thats the theme last meeting sa speech class namen...
putek na baklang un nakakainis magtuturo sabay banat ng "CHARING!" amputek ano to lokohan?
so ngayon magreresearch ako kung anong bagay nag may sense or grain of truth sa isang bagay..
so are you your name?
the answer is NO!
if your thinking that you are ur name ur are mistaken my friend cause ur name are mere labels to you..
labels or words that can be taken away from you...
not like ur dignity cause you are born with ur dignity,
if it for some stupid matter or any way possible that you lose your dignity
then i cant consider you to be a human being whatsoever...
there is no grain of truth in that.
it is true that you are what you are named but there is no grain of truth in your name for it is only made and can be taken away...
so are you your name?
~the answer is till No.
kung gusto ko lng ayusin buhay ko sana nakinig na ko...tinatamad na ko kaya di ko na sinama ung mga tipong hihirt sya ng kung anu-ano tas biglang - charing! charing lng...-
baklang toh naimbyerna ako sayo...
pag naiicip ko kung ano na mangyayari sa kinabukasan who knows? as long as im alive and still kicking y not do something that i can be sure not regret doing.
i want to stop time by strangling it with a rope or something maybe in due time i may consider hanging with my feet propeled upward and into the horizons where my thoughts will surely fly and taste a sense of freedom and worry-free life away from the perils of that fantasy-driven life that the mass has grown with..
For pleasures past I do not grieve, nor perils gathering near; My greatest grief is that I leave nothing that claims a tear.
-Lord Byron
i think i'll let myself out and observe what is happening to the outside world for a while for i feel that im beginning to see something weird every now and then.
LSS for this week
TAKIPSILIM
san ko hahanapin ang ating nakaraan?
ala-alang kay tamis at kay saya..
ang aking puso'y umaasa, nananabik sa yo.
DI MAPIGIL ANG DAMDAMIN, NABABALIW SAYO
aaminin ko, lahat ng ito ay inaalay lamang sa iyo.
AAMININ KO, NA ANG BUHAY KO AY WALANG KULAY KUNG DI DAHIL SA YO.
aaminin ko, tanging ngalan mo ang sinisigaw ng damdamin ko..
maghihintay ako..
patawad, di ko maikukubli..
di inaasahang, mayrong katapusan.
SANA'Y ININGATAN ANG PAGKAKATAON,
na noo'y tayo lamang,at ang bawat sandali ay atin lamang..
ito'y alay ko sa yo..
di makapaniwalang tapos na,ang lahat sa atin at di ka na,magiging akin, kahit na,
ANDITO PA RIN AKO.. UMAASA..