on goodbyes, moving on and the drops of rain.

i forgot what day is it, was it even a night? i tried asking myself that question. it didn't matter now. what matter was the moment that happen that faithful time. so how can i start something that was never meant to begin with now?

as i stood still, momentarily preoccupied by the noise of a thousands or maybe millions of rain drops as it falls on the roof, the trees, the hard pavement and on the palm of my hand. "i love the rain." someone used to tell me that when it rains it makes her happy. how i loved and treasured every single conversation that we had during those rainy days. "i love raining too, cause it makes you feel happy and i'm happy whenever you're happy." such an interesting thing to say. i meant every word, these are some of the interesting things and moment that i had treasured and will now become part of my memory. in time i will forget this, i know, for it will be replaced by another memory. a much more suitable one. but it didn't mean that it will be forgotten for that's a hard thing to do.

a time to end it all and start moving again.
-nothing is permanent in this life, we have to enjoy it while it is still there. i took every chance i get and make it as if i will never feel it again tomorrow. we all struggle to find something worthwhile and we do almost anything just to keep it. wrap it around with our arms so tight and not letting it go. guarding it so as no one would dare take it away. letting go is a hard thing to do. but like a bird who would start exploring the world and ready to spread its wings for it to fly. it needs to let go, away from it's comfort zone. it's not an easy task to begin with but it is not impossible to do. you need to put your best foot forward and start moving one step at a time. making baby steps as you go along and before you know it you are miles away from your comfort zone. parting ways is something that we need to prepare and will do eventually. we have to accept that everything is not permanent in this world. there will come a point in our life that you would feel that you need to move ahead and go forward and be away from any limited sensibilities where you are now and start making a new chapter in your life and open up new possibilities and welcome new experiences which will mold who you are from what you used to be.

-moving on the account of rain.
it started raining again as i'm laying the last few lines of this story. suddenly i felt like i like the rain, no, rather i'm starting to love it. not just it reminds me of how you love it but because i too have began to understand its worth. its like the story of a raindrop leaving its cloud. as it bravely say its final goodbyes to the cloud then proceeded to jump as high and into the horizon away from the cloud that it used to call home. it floats in the air, starting to wonder how much has it has been missing being inside the cloud that shelters it for so long and now as the droplet like any other droplet like him or her falls down embracing the wind that envelopes its entirety. as it plunges its way down to the earth , making time stands still as it views the horizon in a way that he had never seen before and prepares for the finale, the acceptance that good things never last as it kiss the pavement that he will now call home.

~ciaosu

emotions are like wild horses

"tell me everything"



"i'll respect whatever your decision you make, even if this is good-bye."



"i may not know you that well; i mean, i don't know exactly who you are, but i know who you're not. And you haven't been yourself all night."*



there may be things that you've told me that i don't believe but i know that's true and it might be impossible to explain why, for life is complicated..



emotions are like wild horses.. they are untamed and free... but being untamed shouldn't be the way it is.. we should take control over it and not be control by it.



for one only understand the things that one tames..



should i let you go as it is? or should i tame you and let you tame me too?


Or do i should let you roam free? the way you should be..

*excerpt from brida - paolo coelho