miss

it is strange to think that it has been quite a while since we last talked. i have talked with a stranger, a random stranger whom i have just met while standing in line a while ago, but not to you.
i've have seen sunsets and gaze at how the moon has change its phase but none of it matter if i would not be able to speak with you again. i mean yeah it is unfair. you left without a word and just go with your own way. you have been trying to live a life on your own without having to share it with me. i may be a bit selfish to think that i could have at least be a part of it, but you have not given me a chance to be part of it..well not anymore that is.
it really did take a toll with me. but i guess you don't give a damn about it anymore.

am i becoming indifferent now?that i do not know. i may be numb from all of this hurt and sufferings that all this shitty life has been throwing right at me. i won't nudge an inch. i will endure. i will be strong. i will live. i keep telling myself that.well a part of me keep on saying that. i know it has been long since we had talked. i mean when was the last time? do you remember? or do you keep it as another one of those shenanigans that you have been up to. i think you have been threading on the misguided path since then. you know where you are though. i cannot keep on pulling you in on the right path if you have been so eager to go on your own way.

where it lead you? im not really sure. im still here to see where it all lead. im just gonna stand by my ground. and watch you from where i am at, till you can wake up some sense in you. well i hope by the time that moment will come, you will still be standing. i hate to see you like this. feeling broken and unwanted.
you deserve so much better. you will get through this. this too shall pass.

and if all else fails. remember who have stayed with you through all those shitty times. you have the pleasure of having some transient friends for now..but when you are not at the top anymore and your purpose have expired with them you will see who your friends really are, and it will be sad to know that it is them whom you neglect the most.

take a breather and move to a different scene. maybe you will find what you are looking for there.
and maybe...just maybe


you will start to live again.