the trouble with sleeping

why do you i need to bother trying so hard to fall asleep
when in a minute or two i know sleep will come eventually
yet i lie in bed and still wide awake
sensing sounds from the noise that i make
"relax" i said to myself a couple of times
counting sheep that jumps over you a thousand times
and if i start reminiscing in vain
o god i think i might fall from bed again.

hindi ka mawawalan..at lalong hindi ka rin magkakaron.

sarap isipin sa tagal ng pinagbuhusan mo ng pawis, effort, oras, tiyaga, at kung anu pa e mauuwi rin sa wala.

ganyan ang hirap kapag "charity" lang ang trabaho mo...lalo na sa larong basketball..

nasira na ang mamahalin mong bits wok (*beach walk)nadaya pa sa score, natamaan ka pa ng siko, balya, tulak at jabar ng mga kalaro nyong adik, lalo na kapag bumuka na ang bagwis**.(**siya yung isa sa mga nakalaro nila na parang hupaw na hupaw pa..para syang napariwara, bungal at may palawit na buntot yung buhok sa likod at kung tumira e parang phoenix sabi ni kuya eric kasi nkataas kasi yung isang paa hehe)

buti na lang panalo. muntik pang natalo kasi nkahabol pa ang mga katunggali.

ang mga panalo? syempre yung pumusta ng malaki. - chekwa.

ang mga talunan? - bekbek ( humingi pa ng balato kay chekwa...galit pa haha), kuya eric (ng unang game napilayan pa) buboy balane (charity lang ayun..hindi sya nawalan, hindi rin nagkaron.)

everything in stillness

imagine yourself frozen in time

imagine everything around you having a fixed posture

imagine something that has been thrown in the air still levitating

imagine yourself standing still.

and then comes the wind teasing your desire to move

imagine as it touches your skin

as it caresses your hair

as it kisses your lips before it leaves..

having no power to move

having your will chained down

completely powerless, hopeless and in despair

wishing you were something else..just like the air.

a prisoner of time

bounded in invisible shackles that tie you down

fighting it wont do you any good

and enduring it would take forever.

so how does it feel when you are standing still

how does your body feel enduring every struggles

trying to move without moving an inch

embracing the pain when all you want to do was to run away

you break a sweat after some time

realizing your imagining all of this just to pass a while

you sit up straight, think and began to smile

a penny for your thoughts while your money is just a dime.